I Guess Its Just One Of Those Nights.

One of those nights when, you can't help crying yourself to sleep, even though there's nothing to cry about. Its one of those nights when you remember the past, wonder about the future, and vow to change things that really can't be helped. Its that night when you get courageous, and try and mend relationships. Its when you get courageous and deepen current relationships. Its when you get courageous and pour your heart out to a stranger.

There is nothing that feels as good as confessing everything to someone who you will only see once or twice in your lifetime. I did that tonight. And it was mutual. And it felt so good. and it inspired me, to deliver letter that I wrote, never intended for reading. To apologize for things I couldn't face before. To call someone that I love with all my heart, just to talk.


I did alot of things on a whim tonight. Some of it worked out, some of it was rejected. some of it, I rejected. It was a good break from everything.

Sure, I made a fool out of myself. Sure, I won't wanna look at a few of these people ever again. But then there a couple people that I can't wait to talk to again. A few crosses lifted off my shoulders. No more guilt in my consience, from what happened, whaat I did, and what I should've done but didn't.


I should have strangers over more often. She, is just like me. I could be her twin. we're feeling the exact same things at the moment, and we can talk about it because to each other, it isn't unusual, it isn't impossible. To us, its just a day in the life. I feel like she's my long lost sister, or kindred spirit. We will never be best friends. We won't see each other often at all. But I know that I can confide in her, and I'm glad I met her. Even if I only only got to spend tonight with her, out of all eternity. We're connected and we understand each other.


c'est la vie.


I definitely have my disappointments of how some things turned out tonight. They didn't go the way I had planned them in my dreams for so long. But that's okay, there's always tomorrow.


And I can always join the witness protecton program, get a facelift, and immigrate to fiji.