The Wisdom Of Tonight.

There's so much I've come to realize, about the present, and there's also alot of things I recognize that will happen in the future.

Like, growing up. I can't possibly grow up. Like, lets be real here. But I can so grow up. It just sneaks up on you. One day I was in grade one, daydreaming of the absolute impossibility that I would one day be in high school. "Wow", I'd think. "I'll never make it, but one day I could be a teenager. I could drive a car. I could be in high school. I could have a job. I could have a little girl that would be in grade one." And thus the cycle repeats.


I have been in constant denial since I turned thirteen. And the worst part is that I recognize that. So now I have to try and stop denying reality. Even though reality bites.


Its time to face the fact that it will not get easier whatsoever. Its that time when God decides I am ready to handle drama, bear crosses, and make torturing decisions. So he throws it on all on me. And I seem to be doing okay so far.


I know it will have its moments. And now, I don't want to rush the process of growing up. Because I used to do that. And now I regret it. You just stay as young as possible. Becaue with more growth comes more responsibility, and it can get tough. That is no lie.


"Tomorrow you're not going to be as young, and you haven't been as close to death as you are today." Savour it.




Me:"Un"
Brother: "Un"
Me: "Deux"
Brother: "Deux"
Me: "Trois"
Brother: "Trois"
Me: "Quatre"
Brother: "...Meow, meow!"

Ages 6 and 3.



"Don't lose the way that you dance, around in your PJ's getting ready for school." - Never Grow Up/Taylor Swift