The Wonders of Nutella.

After just eating a Nutella sandwich, at 11:30pm I might not sleep for a while. I was hoping to sleep today, but I don't think thats gonna happen.

I would define myself as a recovering insomniac. I'm not as bad as I used to be, but I still never get to sleep until 2am at the earliest. For some, that is ridiculous. But it used to be 4am until I actually got into bed.

All of my intensely ridiculously deep and emotional thoughts are thunk in the middle of the night. All my most impressing feelings are felt after midnight. I don't know what it is, I just don't seem to be as brilliant during the day.

All the songs I've written were written after midnight.. Any simple but enthralling writing is done during the period of time where you're waiting for the sun to come up. After 4am, there's this...anticipation that you can only feel after staying up all night. Only after 4am, until the sun comes up. And when it does, nothing is special anymore.

I consider myself a total extrovert. I couldn't be a hermit. Believe that. But, there's something about night that captivates me. Maybe, it is the absence of the need to socialize that allows me to focus. Maybe, it could be the utter tranquility of it all. At night, there's nothing that you are supposed to worry about.

God made night, so we could sleep. To rest. We cannot rest if we're paranoid, depressed, or scared. So night is purposefully peaceful. And the insomnia. Well, some of the most beautiful people are insomniacs. Because we're so irrational at night, that irrationality becomes sense. It becomes second nature, and it becomes the right way of thinking. Some people cannot help their insomnia. It may be a curse, but for me it is a huge blessing. I could never accomplish during the day, the thought process of a sinlge hour in the middle of the night.


So while you dream on, I'll be thinking of you. I'll be thinking of stupidity and mistakes that could've been avoided. I'll be planning conversations, moments, and memories with certain people. I'll be writing, singing, and dancing. I'll be wondering, I'll be inventing.


But I promise myself that I will never do one thing during the night. Worry.




"Just close your eyes, the sun is going down. You'll be alright, noone can hurt you now. Come morning light, you and I'll be Safe & Sound." - Safe & Sound/Taylor Swift feat. The Civil Wars